What I think of The Handmaids Tale so far

What I think of The Handmaids Tale so far

So far from reading up to page 110, In ‘The Handmaids Tale’, I have noticed that by being female it almost automatically puts you in an unfortunate position. I hate the thought of being part of the Gilead society. I am quiet disgusted by the way the Commander’s  wife has to put up with other women, known as the “handmaids”, coming into her home and having sexual intercourse with her husband. Chapter 16 describes the process of ‘The Ceremony’ in some detail, which I found shocking, weird and a bit disturbing.The lack of choice that the women in the text have really horrifies me. This is because women have no power or say in what they do, it is as if society decides their fate and lifestyle for them all. Neither the Handmaid nor the Commander’s wife can get out of the situation they are in, which is the ‘Ceremony’, where the Commander’s wife lays down with her legs “apart” whilst she is holding hands with the Handmaid; which is supposed to signify they are one flesh, one being. 
I find myself questioning how it got to this stage where these awful things have become a normal act of the society they are living in. The consequence to refusing to follow certain 'rules' or 'commands' would lead certain women's lives to terrifying punishments, which don't even get talked about in detail in the text. When I read about a previous Handmaid that apparently did not finished her job and was replaced before her time at a household was supposed to of been over, you only hear about her disappearing and there is absolutely no mention of what has really has happened to her. This could only leave to two judgments; torture or death. So far everything just seems risky, uncertain and frightening.